why did the last 2 posts i made disappear?
You mean the only two posts you made, prior to this?
It's because they did not belong in the History & Genealogy forum, seemed a bit creepy, and provided too much personal information about someone who probably doesn't even use this web site.
"Purgatory" is a place where I, and any other moderators of this site, move threads to die. The threads aren't actually deleted. They just exist somewhere else that can't be viewed publicly.
I'm now moving this thread to General Discussion, because like your other posts, it does not belong in the History & Genealogy forum.